姐姐
my dear 姐姐
i'm sorry for not being there when you needed me the most
i'm sorry i couldn't do enough to relieve your pain
i wonder why adulthood has been so difficult for us.
i'll do my best to support your decision. i would be lying if i said right now that i fully support you; i know it's selfish and that's why i won't tell you. i just hope i can fully accept it and say our goodbyes the way you deserve it when the time comes.
姐姐, you've always been so cool, so mature, so protective, so funny and so pretty. i'm sorry i didn't see your struggles before, i'm sorry you met that person.
i really wish our lives were different. i really wish i could give you something more.
i'm missing out on so much being in this place.
i need to go back home soon.
i need to see you soon, i want to be able to at least keep the memories. because i love you. i need every single memory before it's too late, because i love you.
i love you 姐姐, thank you for loving me too.